Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Still no news on the job.

Still waiting.

Still grumpy about it.

But at least it's getting closer and closer to the very exciting month of May. If I survive all the Twilight/Host/Mother's Day/birthday excitement planned for the next few weeks, it'll be a miracle. That's the kind of busy that I love!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Limbo

I hate waiting. I hate not knowing what's coming, and I hate having to wait for someone to tell me how my life is going to change.

Still no word yet about a job change for the Z-man.

I don't mind change--really, I don't. As long as I can have complete control over it and know beforehand exactly how things are going to turn out, I don't mind change at all.

I just hate waiting. GRRRR.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Because I'm bored. . . .

And don't have anything better to do tonight, here's more information than you ever wanted to know about me:

1. What is your occupation? Mother, homemaker, piano teacher, Twilight enthusiast

2. What color are your socks right now? non-existant. It's way too warm for socks

3. What are you listening to right now? KOHS--the local high school alternative music station

4. What was the last thing you ate? A Coldbuster from Jamba Juice

5. Can you drive a stick shift? You better believe it baby!

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Some form of yellow

7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? RAE!!!

8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? You bet! Sarah, you're still one of my favorite people ever!

9. Favorite drink? Dr. Cullen--no question

10. What is your favorite sport to watch? volleyball--the ONLY one I enjoy watching

11. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes, but I get bored with it too easily to commit to anything drastic.

12. Pets? One mutt named Bear

13. Favorite food? Strawberries and chocolate--preferrably together

14. Last movie you watched? Other Side of Heaven--Z-man had it on and I half-watched while catching up online

15. Favorite day of the year? My birthday--the only day I can be truly selfish without guilt!

16. What do you do to vent anger? Call Rae, post on TMs, and mostly cry

17. What is your favorite season? Tie between Spring and Fall

18. Hugs or kisses? Um, it depends on whom it's from. . . . Mostly hugs, unless we're talking about the Z-man. . . .

19. When was the last time you cried? When I heard my dear friend's MIL was losing her battle with cancer.

20. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes, dust, and some laundry that fell out of the basket

21. Favorite smells? Chocolate, fresh bread, my babies when they've just been bathed

22. Who inspires you? Rae, Z-man, my mother, and my TM sisters

23. What are you afraid of? Bees--don't ask, it isn't pretty

24. Favorite car? Astin Martin--they're sexy, fast, and Z-man doesn't know how to tinker with them ;)

25. Number of keys on your key ring? 4--my van, Z-man's car, Z-man's truck (not the classic Chevy, dang it!), and our house

26. How many years at your current job? Well, Zippy's 4 now, so. . . .

27. Favorite day of the week? Wednesday--random I know, but it's my break in teaching piano, and I'm halfway through the week--a very hopeful thought.

28. How many states have you lived in? 2 Kansas and Utah

29. Do you think you're funny? It depends on how many Dr. Cullen's I've had and whether Rae, AmyO, and/or Sarah are around

And there it is: Random and useless information about me that you probably never wanted to know.

But then again, there is this: I've actually posted 2 days in a row!!!! Who knew I had it in me!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

GO ME!

I’ve been thinking today about fear. Probably because I’m worried out of my mind about the expected job offer for Z-Man. But, nevertheless, I’m thinking about it. And I’ve decided that it’s been far too long since I started letting fear rule my life.

I’m afraid of failing at losing weight—so I just eat what I want and have gained way too much lately.

I’m afraid of not having enough money for what we need—so I spend way too much in a knee-jerk reaction.

I’m afraid of not writing the funniest, or most insightful, or most entertaining blogs—so I let all my thoughts and ideas pile up, wither, and disappear in my brain.

UGH!! I detest living this way. I hate feeling like I have to escape into poorly written fiction (the only kind I seem to be finding on-line lately) in order to avoid thinking about how I’m letting fear keep me from living my life. And while it will certainly take me a while (with many set-backs), I’m going to change the way I live my life. And actually enjoy the time I have—mistakes and all.

Here’s to imperfect, sloppy, sometimes painful REAL LIFE!
And as step one on this journey—I’m officially posting this entry without editing it—and without letting myself second-guess whether I want anyone else to see this about me or not. GO ME!